Hello friends, sorry it's been a while between drinks. I've been busy, sorry I lie, I've been a bit lacklustre of late and the writing mood has not struck me to be honest. However, onwards and upwards! I have a little bit to fill you in on and as we are such old friends it won't feel awkward catching up, it'll be as if no time has passed at all.
Before we start, coffee or wine? What's your poison? I'm going to pour a red, go on, have one too and we can begin. Where to start? I suppose the obvious topic would be Pug Boy. Well, what a drain that was in the end! All was going quite well for a couple of weeks as we discovered how much we had in common and kept UberEATS in business all over Brisbane. However there was one topic which we could not agree on and frustration on my part grew on how one side and short sighted he could be. His stubborn almost chauvinistic attitude was aggravating me more and more. I like a confident man but when confidence becomes arrogance I am hugely turned off. It became evident that he preferred a woman that didn't have an opinion and wouldn't challenge him on anything, and that is not me anymore.
After things fizzled out with Pug Boy I resigned myself to the fact I am a terrible judge of character - when it comes to men anyway, and that actively searching for a partner was not getting me anywhere positive so I deleted all the dating apps. Well almost....I did catch up with one more man before kissing Brisbane goodbye.
His name was Dean, 38 (bit older thought he'd be wiser - I forever live in hope), cute profile pics and he had a funny bio to match. We settled on a Saturday afternoon beverage at my local fave, The Defiant Duck. First impression - he didn't look much like his profile pics at all - superficial I know but online dating is, let's face it the first attraction is appearance. If someone has a face like a foot combined with a dropped apple pie you wouldn't want to be seen in public with them so what's the point. He 100% nailed the angles he took his pictures with as in the photo he looked like the Hulk, in reality more like the Hobbit - insert sad face. Because I'm a nice person (although from the previous comment it appears I need to work more on that), I persisted with the date. With the assistance of jugs of sangria and good tv viewing in the pub five hours later we said good night. Bless the guy, despite the fickle conversation and the heavy reliance on alcohol the guy still tried to get one away but I was as closed to the advances as a pub on Good Friday.
Some reflection Sunday morning when I surprisingly woke up hangover free, I decided to give up this online dating thing. It was way too difficult and I didn't have the budget to keep myself in sangria if I had to go on another bad date. I lied to myself saying what everyone else in a loved up relationship has said to me since I was in my late 20's - "it'll happen when it happens Ange and when you least expect it" *cough bullshit*.
My last few weeks in Brisbane were spent dateless but they were fantastic. I had quickly succumbed to riverside life - it agreed with me in more ways than one. I had found contentment that I had not found before. I realised for the first time that there is more to life than working, I had found that illusive work/life balance I'd read articles about. I discovered I am truly at my most happiest beside water and it reinforced yet again I have an obsession with all things food.
With the move back to Toowoomba to recommence my previous role, my next challenge is to find a way to integrate these realisations back into my life when normality and old routines become the centre of life again. A huge challenge which I'm not sure I will succeed at. I have a tendency to become reclusive when I am in my comfortable environment, but I have written goals for this year and fingers crossed I have the balls to get comfortable with the uncomfortable, whether that be new experiences or checking out what's changed in the local Toowoomba male talent (I suspect not much!). Sorry if this post isn't filled with such hilarity as previous ones but I'm a big believer in honesty, not every day is sunshine and rainbows as some blogs or Instagram posts make out. My blog will show all aspects of my life - most of the time it's upbeat and quirky like my sense of humour but sometimes it's also going to be a little low key. I wouldn't want to lie to you, it wouldn't be fair. Until next time my friends, ciao!
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